I was reading Amy’s Debtfreegoal.com blog tonight and a particular post caught my attention. In the post Amy was talking about how she realized that you don’t need money to make your family happy; that just being together brings pure happiness. I agree with all of that. I would much rather just be with my son knowing we are healthy and alive than to have life any other way.
Of course this does not mean I am content with my life. I feel I am content in all aspects of my life BUT financially.
- I am content with the relationships I have in my life, even though I could always use more friends.
- I am content with raising my son on my own.
- I am pretty happy with my spirituality growth.
- I am content with the fact that I have my older sister and nephew living with me to help me with my mortgage payment.
- I am content with only filling my gas tank with $25.00 each time I pump gas, because seeing $60.00 to fill it breaks my heart. Ok who am I kidding?! I am so not content with that!
BUT I am 100% dissatisfied with my finances. I am going to be point blank honest with you all. So you know I am real; just like you. I have credit card debt; just like you. I can only afford my minimum mortgage payment right now; which means I can’t even pay interest on the loan. I have less than $70.00 in my savings account that is slowly being depleted by bank fees every month because I cannot afford to deposit $300 into it.
So with all of this going on do you think I have extra money to go out to eat whenever I choose? Or take my son to the movies on the weekend I have him. I feel like a cheap mom when he asks if we can go to Chuck E. Cheese’s and every weekend I have to say no because I cannot afford to take him.
But I have found other ways to just be with him and make things comfortable and pleasant.
Instead of going to Chuck E Cheeses, we make healthy pita-pocket pizzas in whcih he helps make them with me. His favorite part is sprinkling the cheese on them. Instead of going to the movies I use Netflix. It’s cheaper and lasts longer than a movie theater visit. I make sure to rent a movie for him and one for me. I also make sure the new movies have arrived before Friday so we can watch them on Friday or Saturday night. He climbs up on our Chair-and-a-half and snuggles with me and the huge bowl of popcorn I just made. I enjoy those weekends because he’s still small enough to fit next to me on our comfy chair.
I look forward to the day when my bank account doesn’t rule whether or not we can eat out tonight or if we can go see a movie on a Friday night. I’m not planning on getting into more debt once I earn my $5k a month living. I just want to live without financial hardship. Until that day arrives; we do not go to Chuck E. Cheeses or out to the movies. Instead we do our cheaper substitutes and we are content.