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Life is bound to get the best of you some days/weeks. Today was that day for me. I got some rather upsetting news regarding my ex-husband. I am bothered by the news and I let it eat away at me the past few hours. I tried to stay focused on my blog goal for today but I just couldn’t. After hearing the news I needed comfort. I called my sister and then I called another friend. I felt only slightly better after talking to them.

I sat down at my desk and turned on my music and tried my best to focus on my day’s goals at hand and put the news out of my mind. I managed to get only half of the goal done. I have 2 hours until I get my son from school and I am not sure if I can manage to complete the rest of my goal.

Last night I read some posts on The Niche Blogger where some other niche bloggers were saying how they were getting distracted with other brilliant ideas or niches that they lost focus on the task at hand. Amy’s words were simple but powerful “Focus, focus, focus”.

There needs to be focus for this plan to work. Without determination and dedication, I will fail. I do not want to be a failure. I really want to be successful at this. I know I have it in me and I can do it.

Perhaps blogging about the news on my personal anonymous blog will help me get it off my chest and bring my focus back to where it should be right now which is my blogging!

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I was reading Amy’s Debtfreegoal.com blog tonight and a particular post caught my attention. In the post Amy was talking about how she realized that you don’t need money to make your family happy; that just being together brings pure happiness. I agree with all of that. I would much rather just be with my son knowing we are healthy and alive than to have life any other way.

Of course this does not mean I am content with my life. I feel I am content in all aspects of my life BUT financially.

  • I am content with the relationships I have in my life, even though I could always use more friends. :)
  • I am content with raising my son on my own.
  • I am pretty happy with my spirituality growth.
  • I am content with the fact that I have my older sister and nephew living with me to help me with my mortgage payment.
  • I am content with only filling my gas tank with $25.00 each time I pump gas, because seeing $60.00 to fill it breaks my heart. Ok who am I kidding?! I am so not content with that!

BUT I am 100% dissatisfied with my finances. I am going to be point blank honest with you all. So you know I am real; just like you. I have credit card debt; just like you. I can only afford my minimum mortgage payment right now; which means I can’t even pay interest on the loan. I have less than $70.00 in my savings account that is slowly being depleted by bank fees every month because I cannot afford to deposit $300 into it.

So with all of this going on do you think I have extra money to go out to eat whenever I choose? Or take my son to the movies on the weekend I have him. I feel like a cheap mom when he asks if we can go to Chuck E. Cheese’s and every weekend I have to say no because I cannot afford to take him.

But I have found other ways to just be with him and make things comfortable and pleasant.
Instead of going to Chuck E Cheeses, we make healthy pita-pocket pizzas in whcih he helps make them with me. His favorite part is sprinkling the cheese on them. Instead of going to the movies I use Netflix. It’s cheaper and lasts longer than a movie theater visit. I make sure to rent a movie for him and one for me. I also make sure the new movies have arrived before Friday so we can watch them on Friday or Saturday night. He climbs up on our Chair-and-a-half and snuggles with me and the huge bowl of popcorn I just made. I enjoy those weekends because he’s still small enough to fit next to me on our comfy chair.

I look forward to the day when my bank account doesn’t rule whether or not we can eat out tonight or if we can go see a movie on a Friday night. I’m not planning on getting into more debt once I earn my $5k a month living. I just want to live without financial hardship. Until that day arrives; we do not go to Chuck E. Cheeses or out to the movies. Instead we do our cheaper substitutes and we are content.

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