It’s Wednesday night and I have been quite proud of myself the past several days.  I have kept to my goal of building 2 sites a day consistently since last Saturday. So I have built 10 sites in the past 5 days.  I have been ending my days at around 6pm the past few nights. So Usually from 4-6pm I am cranking out the 2 websites. Even with ending my day at 6pm; somehow those last 2 hours just kill me. I feel physically and mentally exhausted at the end of the day. If anyone dare says that internet marketers are lazy even the ones that outsource; they don’t know what the heck they are talking about. There is still alot of the behind the scenes work to be done as an internet marketer. Keyword research is usually the bulk of my day. Anyhow, normally I start off my day with keyword research, communication with my outsourcers and getting their next assignments ready then my daily goal of building my sites.

Today started off a bit differently only because I was forced to completely flip my day around. I sat at my desk ready to first start reading emails from my outsourcers and getting ready to proof read articles they turned in etc. only to discover I had no internet connection. After trouble shooting on the phone with ATT; they finally confirm that there was in fact an outage in my area. Of course all this was confirmed AFTER the tech support walked me through booting up my PC in safe mode and clearing my cache and cookies. So I was without internet for about 1 1/2 hours. In the meantime I figured the best thing was for me to build my sites first. Since I use Dreamweaver to build my sites, I could handle all of my site building without the need for an internet connection (one of the benefits of not using wordpress for my xfactor sites). this actually turned out to be quite nice. It took me about 2 1/2 hours to build my sites and about an hour into my building my internet connection was up. So I quickly got my article rewriter her assignment for the day and answered some questions of hers and then went back to finish my site building, bookmarking, submitted the RSS feeds and then pinging them. I also had to up load the last 2 pages from my sites built yesterday. I finished my site building just as the time arrived for me to pick up my son from school. Once I came back home form getting him; I then worked on my keyword research, bought some new domains and got my keyword lists gathered for my writers. I then did some article marketing for one site and finished for the evening at around 6:00pm. I didn’t feel as drained today so either it means I had more energy because I worked out this morning or that getting the harder tasks of site building down fist helps me out. I think I am going to start site building in the morning since I had that part the most of each day. may as well get the crappy stuff done first; right?

I had a conversation with my son this morning that had made me both angry and yet it inspired me to work harder towards my goal. The conversation was innocent and I cannot blame my son for stating the obvious but it infuriated me. This was it:

son: Mom, How come we never go to the snow?
Me: Because it costs money. It costs me a lot of money in gas, plus food and hotel. I just can’t afford that.
son: Well, dad takes me all the time.
Quickly I retaliated
Me: Well your dad also has Margie to help him pay for things.
son: Oh right, and Margie works.
I glare at him and practically bark at him
me: I work too!
son: I know.

He’s only 7 so it wasn’t like he was trying to rub things in my face or anything like a snotty teenager would do but still it bothered me. It bothered me because for the last 4 years, I haven’t ever had extra money to take him on weekend getaways or even to an amusement park for the day. As a single mother just struggling to pay my mortgage each month; I simply do not have the means to “treat” him to fun activities. This reason is why it is so important that I make my full time income soon. I am sick of not being able to take my son out to experience things that cost money. I am sick of not being able to shop for clothing for myself whenever I want. I am sick of when things happen to the house; I have to slam down a credit card because I have no savings. All of these reasons will push me to work hard each day to hit my daily goal of building 2 sites a day.

His birthday is coming up in March and he’s already expressed how he wants to go to Lego Land. Again; I cannot afford to take him and it was heartbreaking to have to tell him no but if I hit my goal of a full time income by April, I am going to take him! I figure it will be a nice reward for all of this hard work and it will be a great celebration marking a milestone for me.